SHOULDA BN ME
you held your head up
though they’re degrading you
so you fight
from the bottom up top
you hold your fate in your palm
and you’re not letting go 'til
you’re complete
so he was my motivation
my rock, my strength
we lost control
and I chose to let everything fade
so I don’t know about you
I wasn’t there
beginning to end
but when I gave you a chance
everything fell in place
so I believe in love
but if it’s pain
I shall flee
I’d notice you in time
yet I don’t need you
in order to reach my highest
I’d find motivation
from my childhood dreams
and it’s my relatives
that gives me hope
I don’t know about tomorrow
but don’t classify me as them
I don’t gain interest
from your medals and your trophies
I hold up gold from my own heart
ayyy...
so I let you in
just in time
I pushed you away
and you found your way in
so what’s to doubt
when you’d chase me away
with such extreme forever
goodbye it shall be
so it kills me
that I dislike goodbye
that my whole journey home
I died a million deaths
cuz it’s never me with the medal
it shouda bn me
wrapped in your arm
I’d been warned
so I can’t love nor hate you
either way, both’s cursed
shoulda bn me
your ride or die
but then again
my future’s in my hand
I gotta flee to save myself
and it doesn’t matter how I feel
can’t interrogate my mind
thinking about lost fate
I just don’t know what I want
shoulda bn me
that you’d forever love
but then again
I’m clueless about love
only trying to flee
shoulda bn
couda bn
but it’s not me
and I doubt it’ll ever be
me...
