loss
you must of dreamt of what you wanted to do
a thousand times
a young woman like you
with all your life to live ahead of you
but instead all you wanted was peace and quiet
and nothingness around and inside of you
the mental illness came quick to you thats for sure
you were not always like that
it crept upon you in your twenties so suddenly and
took the gal we used to know
and made her a stranger and in torment as you only know
we tried to help you went to doctors and clinics
only to run away from them and those you knew
you must of thought of what you wanted to do a thousand times
because i could never imagine you doing what you did
i wonder if the mental illness told you to do it
i hate the mental illness that took your life now
i want the pain of your loss to stop
but its still the same now as the day i found out
when the police surrounded my family house that day
i came home from work that day
only to find my father
waiting for me as white as a ghost
i knew you had done it
i had felt it after lunch work
i had fell to the floor with a pain in my head
and your words ripped through my brain
“you will be happy im going now”
I felt your death
the minute ithappened
so it was no surprise to me
to find police in my house now
and my mother and father oh so low
this is 30 years ago
but i still see you
my sister my dear sweet sister
before you got sick
i still see your joy and your love
and
all i can say is
i miss you so
and why did you leave me so
