6 years ago, I fell in the puddle of hell called my life., all the beautiful things that surrounded me for all those years  seemed to fade away into dark and scary things. I had no inner strength left to fight the fight and the darkness
I felt i didnt deserve anything beautiful there was so much darkness around me.
Although I Was Very Much In love with my husband. I decided to shield him from my darkness, my hell I was drowning in. I felt he’d already been through hell and I loved him so much, I didn’t want to pull him back into the puddles of hell.  He deserved so much more than I could give him. He deserved happiness, love, beautiful things in life.
As the years rolled past we both tried to move past the once beautiful time in our life. I tried to find the woman he once loved,  but she was lost.  I was so ashamed of my failures I couldn’t dare show my face. Still convinced he deserved better than me. I shielded him from the nothing I had become
. I’m so sorry I drug you through the puddle too. All I wanted was to protect you from me.