there’s a certain emptiness
one I cant describe
it hurts but in a weird way
this is no way to survive
my heart feels hollow
and my lungs burn in pain
something pinching my guts
nothing working in the brain
there’s someone under my bed
or behind the curtain by the window
the fear has consumed me
I reluctantly surrender
insecurities and loneliness
my new best friends
for the 5-year-old me
this is not how the story ends
I sink into my bed
dark thoughts surround me
turn to a shoulder to cry on
there’s no one around me.