(2014)
I told everyone About you The ugly beast Inside of me You can’t hide
Clinical smells Polite strangers The only thing worse Than being here Is to not be able
My heart breaks A little each day For problems I can’t solve For things I can’t change All I can do is pray
I spend all my time Fighting with you In my head If we fought At least it would be
I would never choose To eat a granola bar Or peanut butter crackers Though I eat them All of the time
A family trait Massage Is our vice No shame Take what
I wallow in my sadness As it pools up It has not swallowed me Who floats above its surface This surface
Well-intentioned stranger Eyeing me limp through HEB Why would you ask If I stepped on a nail? How do you know
Apathy and incompetence In healthcare A fax they didn’t send Prescriptions delayed Labs to do again
I am a consumer Female Twenties I buy Cheap clothes and lattes
Strong hands Hold me down To the bed I say to them I have to go
I’ve known Deep inside All along My value That I matter
When I think of my mom I think of malt o meal muffins When I think of my dad Memories of a child Chasing us around the circle
Hospitality To love a stranger It need not be much For one who has little Will appreciate it
How do you measure pain? All is relative and personal Even with one’s own self It is impossible to compare As memory distorts pain