Once in hiding life suddenly becom
Satisfactory.
However, the past always lingers i
Ready to sink its sharp menacing t
Even though I’ve experienced its

Those rapid heart beats I feel as
Reminds me of those laid back rain
We would lazily read books
Slowly
Enjoying the silence

It all starts with a feisty need
A need so great it cannot be ignor
You walk over to her and fill her
With a slick switch you turn her o
Here comes the waiting

Happiness is circulating through m
It swirls around and around
I can’t get enough of it.
Just the very thought of him sets
The lighter of my cigarette

Fear envelopes your very existence
You don’t realise it’s presence at
The invisibility is your downfall.
You only feel it when it, tightens
Your throat restricting.

The comings and goings of life is
Joy and anger seep from within whe
Some linger and loiter whilst othe
There are others.
Others that seem to defy the rule.

I am not yet sure what the purpose
But I am glad he bulldozed calmly
I now fly in the euphoric light of
His smile cuts edges from my darkn
Making me want to explore him furt

The silence that we share is so fo
The silence that we share screams
Bleeding my tears whilst I wipe t
The ropes that we stand on are tea
Will we hold hands and jump?

Rejection
Something I battle with. 
Like a crow pecking for corn it ha
In its simplist form it can render
But, when it hits like lightening,

A smidgen
That is all it takes to keep you o
Like a stained smear you just don’
Nutella to my tongue
But i can’t even lick you off

Darling, what you felt is no more.
You have passed the threshold and 
Embrace what you now feel as truth
Ever since that stint you changed
Your thoughts and emotions fly in

Ah
We meet again
Two crossed lovers in search of on
Like birds we flap around not yet
Feathers falling as we emotionally

Kiss these lips of mine
Tell them the story of how you bec
The benevolent bombardment of thos
Hazy to the eyes,
The sleepy sunrise

Don’t be fooled by that clean cut
That plastered smile
Those primmed trimmed curls
Don’t be fooled by her expressive
Her thought provoking words

Some things are so enticing it’s h
You submerge yourself in different
Letting the sensation wash over yo
Alas, not in the way you’d fantasi
When it re enters your life...

The motions of healing from a trau
Is the same as that of grievance
They follow the same steps
Each person going at their own pac
Fluidity

Growing is a process
And time is its food source
When all too suddenly time froze
And with that, the glimmer of hope
All I required was a taster of wh

It gets to a point where your inne
The hidden and the exposed
The real and the fake
The truth and the false
Catastrophic collisions

When your anger is so deep it pene
When your anger is so harrowing yo
When your anger is so heart warmin
So anger, wash over me and infiltr
Burn my insides till there is noth

The way he looks at me make my hea
The heat radiating between us into
The gap between us lessons as I l
We linger for what felt like etern
He’s drugged me up.

The purpose has yet to be unfolded
I shall not yield any power over i
This man has slowly etched his nam
Tattoo
Wriggling inside my heart -