I wonder what the next step is. On this road of confusion at the moment. I love her but there has been chains holding myself from her. Is there anything I can do to break these chains? To fix what I have done. Maybe? No? Yes? The love I have for her is a bond much too strong too break after what I have went through with her. Every down shift we have seems to make us stronger. We begin to get irritable then we have something to remind us of what we had been doing wrong but we have to go through hell to make things alright again. A good bye? I do not have the capability. I am not sure if she does either. Does she? Maybe? Yes? No? I like to think not i would be completely lost without her. I wish if somebody had a problem with my actions they would at least talk to me about them rather than everybody else. It is my problem isn’t it? questions, questions, questions. Does somebody have an answer to these questions? One person does. Too bad she is the only one I do not have the ability to talk to.