“You can’t change the past but we can choose where we go from there.” I didn’t understand this until the other day when I learned the dues that I needed to pay. I knew I had messed up and I knew I had hell to work through. I am glad that I had the chance too talk out a few things and moved one step forward. I was worried for the way they might have reacted or had to say to me. I was expecting the worst and got more than I deserved. Though I am grateful for the chances I have been given. I understand that I am on very thin ice. All I wanted was to be there and care. I wish I went about it very differently so I didn’t have to go by like this day by day. I think I know now what I need to do. But I have to work through what I had done and move onward. I was told whatever happens from now on lays in the hands of whatever we decide to do and to be. I am determined to show that I can be trustworthy. And I know actions speak much louder than words. So I will let time take its course and stop jumping the gun so I can show what I am truly made of.