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The life of my autistic son

Please define the word normal to me, my son is autistic and will always be. He’s a little different to all the rest, doesn’t mean i love him any less.

Some people can be oh so cruel, making my son at times look like a fool. Not that he can always see, just how malicious they are trying to be.

My boy has trouble sleeping at night, he often wakes up weeping with such a fright. As his mum it’s devastating to see, he also suffers with ADHD.

His life is a struggle he requires support, not all understand this which can make him distraught. 1-1 is what he needs again, same old story not enough funding for them.

Here below is more about him, the rest of this will reel you in. The medication he was on did calm him down, but his smile he had was replaced with a frown.

Walking sometimes is such a task to do, he gets in pain after a short distance with you. You can visibly see he’s different when he runs, making sports day a challenge more so than fun.

Imagine how it would feel to not make any friends, not included at the weekend. Kids parties he must’ve been invited to a few, upsetting for me yet he doesn’t have a clue.

It’s right they’re all unique in there own little way, Joshua obsesses every single day. It can be too much for some others to take, just try to understand his condition for this little boys sake.

His fears he suffers with are off the scale, if he sees a dog he goes ever so pale. Reactions to his fears are always the worst, most outings we see a dog so you feel so cursed.

Took years & years to just get his hair cut, when he refused again & again you felt stuck in a rut. It’s painful for him yet he cant explain why, 8 yrs old he was brave and gave it a try. That day he looked like he’d conquered the world, how proud i was is what he was told.

10 yrs old a lot he still can’t do like ride a bike or swim, he doesn’t need any judgement from you. The time is another he aswell doesn’t know, it’s not through trying his learnings just slow.

There’s a lot he finds hard that other children don’t, it’s because he can’t not that he won’t. His undertanding of money is saddening too, paper or coins he’d have the coins from you. As there’s more to see rather than the true amount, that to him is only what counts. Such a worry to me the older he gets, how will he cope with life is my biggest fret.

When all this is happening to your own beautiful son, it really hurts you as a loving mum. He’s my baby an will always be & will evidently need to rely on me.

He cant shower & wash himself just yet, with all these struggles what help does he get? These issues stops his indepence to grow, it honestly fills me full of sorrow.

The positive you see with our little mate, he has such a kind heart which to me is great. Very sensitive he is which can be good & bad, shows he cares so as his mum i’m glad.

A joke is something he can’t take at all well, whatever is said is seen literally aswell. Can cause a flare up as he becomes afraid, my son is autistic this is how hes been made.

Eating is another concern of mine, same foods are eaten all the time. Likes something one time but not the next, this itself has a lot of affects.

I could actually sit here & write all day, i as his mum just wanted my say. Situations can alter his behaviour a lot, not because he’s naughty it’s from the conditions hes got. Remember this poem before judging those you don’t know, they don’t deserve the abuse you will throw. A little different is good to me, it’s known as having a personality. My son will get there in the end, with his mum whose his bestest friend.




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