While you were gone, My childhood dog died. I wept for both of you, And I felt like a corpse. While you were gone,
You don’t ask me to speak. You never expect my opinion. I was your second child In a runaway marriage. I suppose I loved you once,
If only My tears were colors. There would be pink on my pillow And green on my shoes. There would be red on the paper
Splattered you All over my body And flecks of skin Inside every crevice. I can’t get rid of you
Nights of chuckling After no jokes And Dancing without nerves Become me
I could hop on a train. Grow akin to the screaming and whi… Where would I go? Far from here, from cold. Tell my parents my love,
Moon up, Pants down. I said no. His body said yes.
I’m a good girl in the worst ways Most days. Some days, I’m a bad girl in all the best way… I’m pretty good,
I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.
Touch me for real. Touch me in your mind And all over my body With your chapped hands. Let your eyes undress me.
It’s over. It’s okay. The parting is such sorrow And relief. It hurts like a crushing force,
My mother is the darkness inside m… She planted the seed That grew into brambles, And now, I can’t be loud Because she makes me so
The grass was dewy. You carried me on your back. I could feel your heartbeat Through your shirt. I wanted you to be mine,
She fell like rain, Like a bird, Like a comet chasing light, Like a star dropping from the nigh… Like a stone in water,
Mom, I miss you, And I’m miserable. I miss grandma, And I’m so lonely. I miss being a kid.