How have I gotten here?
To a place where numbness is the finish line, first and second place is sickness and death.
A place where I can’t bare my own thoughts so I swallow them down pill after pill until my head is so high up I’ve forgotten who I am.
Maybe this is who I am.
Deep inside my core there’s nothing left but an emptied soul and desire for more nothingness.
Truth be told I crave it
I yearn for it, I need it. Just cut me another line of white and there IT IS!
Nothingness,
numbness,
home.