What I am made for
(F. Galaz, 2024)
Life, how to describe life?
Sometimes I am trying to explain it to myself, life, it is running in front my pupils.
Sometimes I am afraid, that this life will never stop running, not enough, to close my eyes and really feel it.
My life, at times, was losing its glittered and I wondered when it would be me, and not just someone else dreams, someone else desires... just me.
I closed my eyes, and the path that I used
to follow was not the one that my heart sang while my eyes were closed.
My incomprehension blinded my eyes,
and the joy that I used to feel in every life’s details, was not there any longer.
I was lost, like if a strong chain keeps holding me from my desires and dreams.
What can I do? I asked God, I prayed to him so many times for an answer.
Drifted, that is how many times I felt.
No trace of a joyful life.
But one day, God heard my voice and his
answer was forceful saying: change your eyes.
It was until I gave my love to a completely stranger, that I was able to find myself again.
It was not a divine signal, not a celestial apparition, nothing different from what I see every day. It was empathy with the other suffering.
And he said: where you have seen fear,
sadness and incomprehension, bring happiness, courage and empathy.
Get your feet off the ground, dare to move and share what I have shared with you.
Tell the people, there is always a silver
lining in the gray clouds and share the love I have sown in you and fly like seagulls, free enough to move from place to place.
Tell them it is in them too.
Life has taught me that there is no border sufficiently sealed that I cannot cross, and that emptiness that I felt one day, was necessary, to bring space to what I wanted to be.
I now know that emptiness was myself,
telling me there is something that I am missing out there, and is waiting for me.
It has always waited for me.
