For you.
(2014)
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,