Lately
I’ve been hearing lots of silence
But your voice rings in my head
I’ve been sitting here trying to write this
Hours since I’ve left my bed
Lately I’ve come to realize
of music I listen less
I’ve been writing my own melody
putting such sad lyrics to rest
I’ve spent most my life dreaming
And the other half sleeping
Everything has been so defeating
I’ve often found myself just weeping
Lately I’ve come to notice
that I smile more than frown
and I cry more from laughing
than feeling so let down
I dont want to look back steaming
all the anger from my eye beaming
Just looking forward to whats ahead
Screaming, “Fuck the past” instead
Lately I’ve come to wonder
why I was wasting so much time
but if I was never truly sad
Then I wouldn’t know how to be fine
And if I learned just to be fine
Than maybe I’d start to feel okay
And once that finally happened
I looked forward to a new day
Lately I’ve been singing
to all the songs I’ve lost the words
And I begin to notice
This song was never heard
For I never had a reason
A true sense of how it feels
to be happy, to feel loved
to feel life is surreal
And then one day I saw you
and my heart jumped out of my chest
Lately, I’ve been blind
but I saw you weren’t like the rest
(2013)
