I’ve waited so long
to feel this way once again
never want it to leave
to know how much you care
where I am and what I’m doing

I was so confused
Tossed away into the dark
Wandering all alone
Forgot I had a heart
When I was sitting quiet

One of these days
I’ll snap right back
Hit you so fast
you didn’t see it coming
hurt you so bad

please just turn your back
turn away and dont look back
to see me crying
I want you to go
I’ll always love you

I could whisper all my secrets
Write them down in the darkest ink
I could tell you all the stories
that had my heart shrink
I could listen to you breathing

Please just ignore me
please forget I’m even here
unless you’re gonna kill me
I welcome you closer
I warn you

And weve blown through these
life shaking extremities
disillusioned from right and wrong
once again, another empty song
I want you to feel the way I feel

Forgiveness is all I ask
from you and from myself
big mistakes are my forté
but they keep happening, day by da
This life is a wasteland

gripping grasping
choking dying
painful beautiful
all one in the same
creep up on me

I wait. Everyday.
You’re gone. Gone away.
I stay. Every night.
You’re gone. But it’s all right.
I see what you can’t

are you there?
cause i can feel you
i know you’re listening
i know you feel me
no matter how i try

I thought I really loved you
as if I knew you once before
until you only liked me
and then you vanished out the door
you left the keys inside the lock

his knees shaking
her heart breaking
some day meant to be
maybe for eternity
making it right

Confused is what you say
but depressed is what you are
i try to be a friend
but you keep pushing me afar
feelings winding and unwinding

one swift crash
on the side of the road
this was the word
“diabolical” she spoke
one white line

And your ignorance compiles
the truth behind your lies
and such fading smiles
may lead to bitter good byes
and with every second passing

It was nineteen ninety six
when her father left home
her mother thought she could fix t
such pains she’d never know
A four year old, new father found

woke up this morning
feeling kinda strange
to the sound of pouring
never ending rain
but the sun was shining

What a screwed up world
we’re raising kids in
seems like war is a game
G4, I sunk your battleship
adults are supposed to set example

Nothing like a rainy day
to let your mind drift away
and though you know you’ll be okay
you want the rain to stay
It’s a slow, sad life

Out of the bad comes good
And out of the good comes bad
And out of every happy moment
May come a little sad
And every time the sun shines

I thought my nights were lonely
when my world was cold and dark
with no one to love and cherish
I would lie here on my own
my heart would beat so steady

Sometimes it just seems like no on
like my life, I cannot bare
It just hurts so hard
It hurts inside
the pain is hard to hide

Ever wake up in the morning
but the air is bitter cold
and you had all this shit to do to
but dont want to anymore
Ever try to sleep at night

Do you remember the time
when we sitting on the couch
and you told me that I sucked
and I just began to pout
And then your eyes grew heavy

Some days I’m happy
Happy enough to be alive
Some days I dont care
Enough to survive
Most days I miss this

I admit it
You’ve become my addiction
Thinking of you every second of th
And every night I swear I pray
To help me stop being so switchy

Please dont pretend
that you dont know who I am
at least have the decency
to smile when you pass by
it isn’t that bad

Don’t you say you don’t like me
if you don’t know
how I walk, how I talk,
how I think, know my flow
Don’t begin to judge

i thought you’d care
i thought you’d cry
i thought you’d want to tell me wh
i told you the truth
the facts, how you act

nothing even matters
now that you’re gone
I haven’t seen you in a year
and I know that it’s wrong
you’ve been taken from life

I’ve got letters in my mailbox
filled up to the brim
with apologies and longings
and where to begins
and I’m so tired of your postage

I write these words
just for this class
as I watch the birds
as they fly past
the windows, the sunlight

Irony
Its raining
in the middle of a drought
Laying in bed
though the night is gone

Boggling, I’m shook
from head to toe
Dizzy, quiet listening
GIVE BACK WHAT YOU TOOK
Apprehensive aggression,

My eyes grow tired
from staring into the dark
waiting for you to disappear
to stop trying to tell me
every thing’s okay when it’s not