Is it trapped inside?
Or am I just trapped
Coughing up a lung
with every slight laugh
maybe im bad

And weve blown through these
life shaking extremities
disillusioned from right and wrong
once again, another empty song
I want you to feel the way I feel

well, i never lied
i never swore
i always held my breath
i changed everything i am for you
until theres nothing of me left

Below the surface
Im dying deep down inside
how could you tell
I dont talk
tell anybody anything

walk around the other side
and took a look real close
walk inside outside upsidedown
what you see no one knows
inside the mind

So tired of worrying
wondering, wishing
that everyone would pull their hea
It feels as though Im
running, fighting

You got me worrying
right through to the bone
are we coming to an end
I have got to know
I wait by the phone

I’ve waited so long
to feel this way once again
never want it to leave
to know how much you care
where I am and what I’m doing

spinning down
falling inside
gasping for air
grasping for the sides
strainging to see

I watch him walk by
I wonder if he notices me
I watch him open and close his loc
I wonder if I’ll ever be the one
The day I cry is the day he dies

I’ve got letters in my mailbox
filled up to the brim
with apologies and longings
and where to begins
and I’m so tired of your postage

The rains falls down
on a world dull and damp
any joy does now drown
by the dim of my lamp
the streets glisten with moisture

I’m so sick
sick and tired
of being told
how to act, what to do, how to dre
I’m gonna be me

I write what I know
and what I know is what i see
so what you would know
if you could really see?
We all look and glance

It’s dark and I’m bitter
Never leaving again
I’m sad and I hate it
I just don’t understand
My heart aches

white
whitening
solid
solitude
walls

I’m done with you
sick of all your lies
I love you but
I dont need you
I can live without you

Ever wake up in the morning
but the air is bitter cold
and you had all this shit to do to
but dont want to anymore
Ever try to sleep at night

Through the looking glass
is what my eyes see
through this magnifying glass
made specifically just for me
every color, every shape

she sits alone and reads
yellow flowers on her desk
what she is thinking
I dont dare to guess
I’ve seen her before

let the sun rise
as I awake with a smile on my face
with you by my side
as if to feel your embrace
but your smile’s so close

I could whisper all my secrets
Write them down in the darkest ink
I could tell you all the stories
that had my heart shrink
I could listen to you breathing

woke up this morning
feeling kinda strange
to the sound of pouring
never ending rain
but the sun was shining

I cant sleep at night
Youre always on my mind
Youre the only thing thats gone ri
In this world of shattered lives
I cant wait to see your smile

gripping grasping
choking dying
painful beautiful
all one in the same
creep up on me

Confused is what you say
but depressed is what you are
i try to be a friend
but you keep pushing me afar
feelings winding and unwinding

I dont want to do the wrong thing
when I clearly know whats right
and i dont want to say i love you
but im with you every night
and ive never stopped laughing

I asked you what’s wrong
and you said nothing
you’ve held up so long
it’s crystal clear you’re bluffing
I just want you

Halt your actions
your words, I dont care
your life is just dandy
stop bragging, unfair
let me be

Youre doing it all wrong
you dont want me
Im just another mistake
Another cause of unprotected sex
You know nothing about me

Breath me in, just swallow me whol
consume my life and possess my sou
Keeping quiet, my grounded feet
Cant sweep away, when all’s kept n
I saw you smile and I saw you cry

were past friends
forever inseparable
you make me feel
as if I’m important
the only one out there

Every year I get older
the weather grows colder
and the rose starts to fade
and everything is grey
As I look to a new day

and I dont know what to say
how did we get this way
you told me that you loved me
and that you always would
I’d choke out those three words

It was nineteen ninety six
when her father left home
her mother thought she could fix t
such pains she’d never know
A four year old, new father found

what is a shooting star
someone’s lost dream
bottled up, let loose
streaming across
the night sky