(2014)
#DreamsLoss #Love
So much time passes without feeling a single thing that I think I would give anything
I say hello and you say nothing You may hear me you may even think of a response
The road is long and winding like nothing you can imagine Too many off ramps to count but too few in hindsight
The hands of this watch haven’t moved since the last time you did and I’m not sure if I’m ready to hear the ticking
If I was once the tallest mountain your love was the wind that eroded me to nothing
There is something to be said of a true friend One who will pull the knife from your back One who will stitch the wounds
I wish you had told me that on the good days kissing you would make me think that I knew what happiness was and on the bad days
Loving you was never sweet like the taste of vanilla the way I thought it was supposed to be It was more like
I was like a rain cloud over a small garden and dammit if you weren’t that garden so full of flowers that I fell in love
I see poems that need to be written scrawled in the shape of your smile and the lines of your face
I spend my nights wishing on every star in the sky that you are alive and well
I’ve kept my eyes closed most of these past eighteen years because I find it just as dark
To put it simply each beat of your heart is a gift that I receive with the anticipation of a child at christmas
Everyday I visit the only writers block I know to hone my words and wit and help them cut deeper into the skin
I hope this is postmarked before my death certificate is dat… but you’ll know why if it is or if it isn’t If you get this in time