A summary? How is thou to write a summary, when a summary is a description of something worthful? I have had few worthful experiences since i turned 12. Now my life is very different. I am emo, emotional, a cutter, and a very hurt, and depressed about to be teen. I might even be bipolar. I cannot tell you of a life oh so FULL of happiness, because if I said that's how my life is or was, I would be lying. I cannot tell of a time, since I turned 12, that I have not thought of killing myself neither. I see things, That's the main cause of my negative feelings. They caused almost all of this pain and hurt. But they made me realize how really cruel the world is, and how it's oh so full of pain, tears, and sadness, and even fear. I am the way I am, and all of it together in the past year, has made me suicidal. i am the way I am, and I do NOT want to live a different life, but this one DOES need help. I am just too afraid to get help. I have told people of my problems. Some have told me to get help. WELL HOW ABOUT YOU OUT YOUR HEART WHERE YOUR MIND THINKS IT'S PLACE IS RIGHTFUL!!! I know I need help, but I need you to help. Any and everyone. Please pray for me, and PLEASE don't tell me to get help. I dont want you to TELL me to get help, I want you to BE help.
Grew up in a good family but experienced my parents divorce when I was going on 4 years old. My grandparents (mothers parents) were my sister, Candice and my."Other parents". When I was 11, going on 12, my mother and father decided that it would be in our best interests to live in the Eastern Cape with my father but we ended staying with his parents. My father's eldest brother lived there too. He molested me..My sister and moved back, I had only revealed that I was abused when I was 17. My father's grandmother told me not to tell anyone when I went to her when I was 11. When I was 15, I started using drugs and was struggling with addiction for 7 years. Long story short....I now have three beautiful daughters, married for just over two years and I manage a kickboxing club my husband and started. I fight too..we cater for children who are under-priviledged. My husband, Moenaan, was muslim but now serves Jesus as His personal Savior.