I grew up in the middle of a cornfield in Nebraska. My mother, born in 1950, and my father, born in 1924, raised me well. I had a great childhood, but my father dying when I was 13 had a large impact on me. I went down a rough road being a state ward, messing around with drugs and alcohol, and living life on the run. Through everything, however, I never stopped writing. Sure, I'd go through dry spells like we all do, but I've never given up. I write short stories, and poetry. I have a very abstract view on life, sometimes. My poems don't always make sense. But that's why I love to write; it doesn't always need to make sense to taste good on your tongue and feel right rolling across your lips. I was published by The American Poets Society in the Book Expressions at age 13 if any of you care to try to look me up. My piece was simply titled, 'Daddy'
My name is emma giddings. I am a horrorjunkie, and I love music. I was diagnosed with panic disorder, and it has been an inspiration to a lot of my writing, seeing as it made me quite depressed. I am very dark, and I love that about myself. I also love dark people, with a morbid sense of humor. I used to self mutilate quite a bit. It seemed like an addiction, and sometimes it seems like I'm about to relapse. It is one of my major struggles. Yet, I tell people I am over it. I drink maybe more than I should. I'm still trying to find myself. Writing helps a lot with this. I feel less alone when I write... I feel like someone is listening. Like someone understands. I'm not a sad person per say. Just dark. I don't hate my life...but like everyone, I think it could be better. I've started to hate my body. My idols include: Stephen King, Joan Jett, and Dee Snider. I love classic rock, punk, and thrash metal. I hope people read my poems...and feel something...and if they do, I hope they let me know.
Well, I had a boring and event-less childhood. I moved to a different city and school when I was in fifth grade, and that is when my life completely changed. I made new friends, met new people, and had a change of atmosphere that was more hectic and noisy than what l was used to. In seventh grade I started playing tennis and I joined the student council as vice-president. My grades weren't perfect but they were acceptable, that was also the year that I started dating and doing theatre. It was the year that I started finding it important to stay active and get a good name started for myself. Without that year I would have never started writing. In one season change I ended up writing over one-hundred poems, and then I experienced a year and half long writer's block. When I came back with no writer's block, I learned that a poem can't solve everything. I realized that with or without poetry I was going to hurt, but a poem was more of a mild sedative; it would work but only for so long. After this epiphany, my writing evolved and became more mature. My thoughts on society developed and I became an actual person instead of a living doll with no intelligence. I love poetry, and any form of writing; I have no idea where I'd be today without it. I'd probably be a naive child who never understood overly complicated things. I find with these thoughts that I owe poetry my heart and life.