The clock is ticking
It’s time to decide
Should I choose love
Or should I choose pride
If I don’t make a choice,

It speaks my words
And breaths my name
It makes me wanna go insane
It laughs at my pitty
Screams out the truth

I can’t even look at the time or t
because as the days go on the furt
What could I have done, different
Could I have been different?
Was it inevitable?

I couldn’t imagine,
what life could’ve been
if I would be able
to experience your grin.
Taking my time,

Sometimes my actions don’t match m
It feels kind of absurd.
That when I speak, I don’t always
Think a thought, speech is slurred
Open mic, spoken word.

Oh darling, you poor withered soul
Oh how life has taken its toll.
Your emotions are widowed,
your feelings a stray..
you can’t look in the mirror,

I open my eyes and I am awakening
The sense of the truth and reality
That I have no idea what’s going
The external world is beyond my re
The devil will always preach

I came here on accident, best acci
Isn’t it clever, how these memorie
A love so slim, it made my blood r
Could never ever begin, the pain t
Lies were your actions, the truth

She was smart, and had a keen memo
He was deep, and did not lack a se
He had humour, and charm.
She had organization, he had chaos
She had a strength in her speech,

Anxiety feels like sharp pains clo
Breath becomes heavy, seething thr
I can feel my lungs, I can feel m
Everything is echoed, every note,
A strong intense desire to rewrite

My whole life I have been afraid
The very idea scared me to the cor
Knowing this is an issue I face,

The wave of darkness is coming
It’s strong this time
Pulsating through my veins
I feel pain
It crashes into my skull

You sold your soul,
for a lead role.
You denied your part in the whole.
A comfortable cage you chose,
where no pain arose.

All high n’ mighty,
gets low n’ destroyed.
These emotions
one tries to avoid.
Wake up

I can’t stop thinking about you,
every waking second of the day
It’s painful, won’t go away
I see your face, my mind melts
Talking to you,

I look at you and see the lies in
The Demond inside you cries the t
Yells words of terror out through
Haunting those precious to you
Nobody knows but you

It’s possible to love someone you
It’s hard because these feelings c
Maybe I have a perfect perception
Maybe this perception is not true
I live in a land of wonder in my h

Everything stops, I look around.
I am the only one moving, making a
Silence is a noise, I cannot hear
I get up I feel the ground,
everyone is here, yet no-ones arou

The beginning to the end,
no time to pretend,
that time is our friend.
Tomorrow, & today, we live our Su
its all the same– it’s no old news

Prologue -
(I kept walking, with my eyes glue
The sun hit my eyelids and rays of
Something was trying to escape.——
Moonlight– moon lit meadows,

Life has a weird way of
bringing the past back into the pr
Is it just a way to give us hints
circumstances in the future?
Or are we just cursed in an endles

I made a choice, now I have to ru
If the universe picked this path f
Am I messing with fate, will the
I got to close my eyes and realize
I often miss things so much that

It’s an epiphany in the stars,
that answers questions I’ve had fo
I keep walking on mars, to forget
my lonely years, and those drunken
I wake up without a regret,

The most typical existential crisi
Does life have meaning, or does it
No really. If nothing is a coinci
well, inherently that means this s
So all the heartache, pain and suf

I can hear a soft buzzing in my ea
And a pain in my temples
The thoughts are flowing un –stead
What is life if I have to live th
No choice, no control of what peop

It is eerie, it is quiet..
as I walk outside alone.
The sun beats down on my face,
and even with the crisp air–
it warms my insides.

why do I feel so much?
care so much?
so in touch?
“nice guys” finish last
your kindness was a thing of the p

I always feel pressure
It starts in my head
Pushes it’s way out
Through my chest
This beating heart

Once I stumbled, full of defeat.
I could hear the rumbling, under m
I prayed to the heavens, I prayed
“I am not sure who I am, not sure
I was pained, warped, always unsur

Its a universal paradox
Ties my stomach into knots
Negativity was brewed in thoughts
From the day I was born I thought
Im sorry if I brought you down

I live a life,
A life to please.
Where no-one knows the in-between.
Some what of an irony.
A soul that is open, lock and key

Take a glance, the clock’s the sam
each, and every day.
Think a thought, the thought comes
almost every day.
Fantasize, close my eyes,

I find myself in situations where
Observing people and time as time
I keep looking into the past
Then next thing I know it’s two y
The date keeps changing

A passage in time – large as a sti
This moment in time– it’s just a g
Stay at work late– throw down a pi
Walk home in the – dark – it’s jus
Empty cages, open places -

I have no words to explain how I
I don’t understand them, and it do
But with the guidance of fantasy
I feel like if I try I can unders
Of every situation

I stepped out into the future unkn
Blinded from all the proof of trut
I see with my eyes closed
But I’m afraid of the dark
I capture the light in my hands