The clock is ticking
It’s time to decide
Should I choose love
Or should I choose pride
If I don’t make a choice,

You sold your soul,
for a lead role.
You denied your part in the whole.
A comfortable cage you chose,
where no pain arose.

I was silenced by your silence,
an internal violence...
An unsuspected science.
What’s the opposite of chemistry?
What do you make of me?

I live a life,
A life to please.
Where no-one knows the in-between.
Some what of an irony.
A soul that is open, lock and key

A feeling that is unfortunately ti
Not a poem that is rhyme-less,
It makes sense, but feels tense.
I swear we shared something real,
I am not quite sure of your ordeal

Invisible– drowning in the noise.
You talk with such poise.
I went silent– where are the years
Soaking up the nostalgia, drowning
Life is ripping at the seams.

It’s possible to love someone you
It’s hard because these feelings c
Maybe I have a perfect perception
Maybe this perception is not true
I live in a land of wonder in my h

You beg and plead, come to my aid.
“the boy who cried wolf”
Always in trouble.
When I see you, I see double.
No need to cry out, this is the wo

I felt my life flash before my sou
It was a horrifying yet incredible
The sun beating down
Glimpses of a second
Seconds in a moment

Enlighten me
But do not frighten me
I can see and I can hear
Footsteps on the walls
Foot steps big and tall

I can feel my consciousness unrave
I’m growing and moving forward
There will always be fear inside m
But isn’t that a great way to star
The fuel in my desire to be higher

Sometimes my actions don’t match m
It feels kind of absurd.
That when I speak, I don’t always
Think a thought, speech is slurred
Open mic, spoken word.

My mind is in a different world
I make up stories of the unknown
I put scenarios together
I make a different story
I don’t know what is real

Anxiety feels like sharp pains clo
Breath becomes heavy, seething thr
I can feel my lungs, I can feel m
Everything is echoed, every note,
A strong intense desire to rewrite

Take a glance, the clock’s the sam
each, and every day.
Think a thought, the thought comes
almost every day.
Fantasize, close my eyes,

time has taken a hold of me
It’s inside me, and I can feel it
I feel it, I can only feel it
My thoughts, dare I reveal it
Time is inside my skull,

a sweet, yet bitter taste of the p
a fleeting memory, that happens fa
a day, that no longer exists,
take me into the sweet abyss
a channel in time

Something was meant to be,
A story was meant to be told.
Relationships were meant to blosso
a life path was made to unfold.
I disrupted fate,

It’s an epiphany in the stars,
that answers questions I’ve had fo
I keep walking on mars, to forget
my lonely years, and those drunken
I wake up without a regret,

I’m in my phase where I’m above i
Laugh it off because,
nothing’s wrong...
It’ll hit me soon.
The realization,

The water is rising up,
closer and closer to the top.
I feel my lips grace the water,
not quite sure what I thought of h
It is pouring into my lungs now,

It is eerie, it is quiet..
as I walk outside alone.
The sun beats down on my face,
and even with the crisp air–
it warms my insides.

Life has a weird way of
bringing the past back into the pr
Is it just a way to give us hints
circumstances in the future?
Or are we just cursed in an endles

Nobody will ever understand the wa
I know that is supposed to be a cl
But it isn’t
Nobody will ever know
They don’t think my thoughts

Everything stops, I look around.
I am the only one moving, making a
Silence is a noise, I cannot hear
I get up I feel the ground,
everyone is here, yet no-ones arou

I would rather be on cloud nine,
In my fantasy world, in this world
Taking my soul away from my body,
So these aching feelings don’t hau
Indie flicks and detachment,

Obviously the known is gone,
Knowing it all then its dawn.
Thoughts fucked up hey now I can’
Its so hard I just don’t want to
Obviously you know my name,

I couldn’t imagine,
what life could’ve been
if I would be able
to experience your grin.
Taking my time,

I could die today and it would all
Just the fear that id stay alive i
Ironically I keep living,
Each day I lay in my death bed,
Ignoring the outside world

The wave of darkness is coming
It’s strong this time
Pulsating through my veins
I feel pain
It crashes into my skull

Nothing is real so we are free,
from this subsequent society.
Eroding rocks,
and nothing is free.
But nature moves with you and me.

Prologue -
(I kept walking, with my eyes glue
The sun hit my eyelids and rays of
Something was trying to escape.——
Moonlight– moon lit meadows,

life is just a series of open-ende
things that are left unsaid, quest
/waiting and waiting.
prolonged eye contact is one of th
it’s when you and another person f

The energy is high,
frequency turned all the way up.
Attracting all into my universe.
I feel good, so good.
It’s the placebo effect,

Made mistake.
created disgrace,
Disapproval upon your face.
I have been so clouded by thought.
Dug me way too deep.

We have this preconceptiom– that o
goal things will become infinite–
The world will be somehow ours.
The funny thing is– besides the ac
I’ve reached a goal or am reaching