The clock is ticking
It’s time to decide
Should I choose love
Or should I choose pride
If I don’t make a choice,

I live a life,
A life to please.
Where no-one knows the in-between.
Some what of an irony.
A soul that is open, lock and key

I came here on accident, best acci
Isn’t it clever, how these memorie
A love so slim, it made my blood r
Could never ever begin, the pain t
Lies were your actions, the truth

The beginning to the end,
no time to pretend,
that time is our friend.
Tomorrow, & today, we live our Su
its all the same– it’s no old news

I saw swirly lines
And breathing walls
I felt the world collapsing in on
Ive been taken to the end of time
Realizing I want to be alone

The wave of darkness is coming
It’s strong this time
Pulsating through my veins
I feel pain
It crashes into my skull

Today I was a product of sins,
I let out negative emotions.
Death is knocking on all doors.
It’s time to explore.
Do I have options?

It’s an epiphany in the stars,
that answers questions I’ve had fo
I keep walking on mars, to forget
my lonely years, and those drunken
I wake up without a regret,

I know you’re settling
Settling for less
I know 'cuz I’ve been there befor
Ice cold desires
Filling the empty void

Anxiety feels like sharp pains clo
Breath becomes heavy, seething thr
I can feel my lungs, I can feel m
Everything is echoed, every note,
A strong intense desire to rewrite

A feeling that is unfortunately ti
Not a poem that is rhyme-less,
It makes sense, but feels tense.
I swear we shared something real,
I am not quite sure of your ordeal

Oh that could’ve been me...
Another fantasy thats run away fro
But it wasn’t meant to be.
That’s what I’ll say to me.
I run away– from anything doubtful

I’m higher than you
When I die I’ll look flyer than y
Inspire the truth
Don’t expire your youth
Require the proof

Once I stumbled, full of defeat.
I could hear the rumbling, under m
I prayed to the heavens, I prayed
“I am not sure who I am, not sure
I was pained, warped, always unsur

Life has a weird way of
bringing the past back into the pr
Is it just a way to give us hints
circumstances in the future?
Or are we just cursed in an endles

Prologue -
(I kept walking, with my eyes glue
The sun hit my eyelids and rays of
Something was trying to escape.——
Moonlight– moon lit meadows,

I am so goddamn alone,
I have help and guidance, then its
I will always be with me,
Alone, without the propper company
Each minute feels like less or may

Silence
Ringing in my ear
I don’t want to think listen or he
What day or year
Haven’t I been sad

I would rather be on cloud nine,
In my fantasy world, in this world
Taking my soul away from my body,
So these aching feelings don’t hau
Indie flicks and detachment,

Put your best foot forward!
But, I am cursed with two left fe
Running in circles.
Ironically, no ends meet.
Reckless behaviour,

Take a glance, the clock’s the sam
each, and every day.
Think a thought, the thought comes
almost every day.
Fantasize, close my eyes,

We sit beside each other in silenc
No one makes a noise
Every day goes on
Lists made
Things to do

I find myself in situations where
Observing people and time as time
I keep looking into the past
Then next thing I know it’s two y
The date keeps changing

I constantly find the riveting des
An emotional roller coaster of re
I’m being myself now, and it turns
I wanna get rid of the regret and
I don’t want to do it alone, I ne

You realize that life is passing y
Like a ticking metronome
Not knowing what I want
Feeling like there are questions l
I breath in, breath out

I want to say all the things in my
The thoughts won’t come from pen t
And I’m stuck in this position in
My mind screams somebody save her.
The only thing in my head is ur fa

If you’re guilty and you know it,
Karma is just a different form of
Everything you ever said, I’ve go
Tried one more bump, now I’m bumm
Fly one more time, and I’m fucked

What ever is black and white,
Does not describe tomorrow .
What is grey, describes the next 7
A hollowed out truth, nothing expe
We tore down the walls of tomorrow

I can feel the feeling
What’s that feeling
It’s tingling in my feet
Creeping through me
Surrounding me whole

The tossing and turning of human e
one day as sure as the blue in the
This day I am full of pride and d
Then the thoughts I let kill me,
the days where nothing fulfills me

To me a fatal attraction,
to you just a distraction.
A charity case,
Not worth the chase.
You feel the disgrace,

I keep checking, checking time, ch
My brain on overdrive and its kill
Mind controls, we can’t control th
You never can, are you people blin
Step back, pause, breath and rewin

I look at you and see the lies in
The Demond inside you cries the t
Yells words of terror out through
Haunting those precious to you
Nobody knows but you

Take me to the end of the road,
hand in hand .. I erode .
Look into my eyes and I would exp
You have no idea the hold you have
I am no longer free, in your compa

It plays over an over again in my
It won’t go away, can’t get out of
5 am and the feelings are all gone
Is it the will to be right or the
Back and forth with the same tune,

What more can we punish ourselves
One last step out the dying door.
It closes and I fear, Ill never g
Confidence, is what I lack.
I wish that one day, Ill find my