I'm Sorry
This is not a poem..it's my apology.
I know we are not supposed to regret things that we’ve done in life...
Sometimes you just can’t help it
Where do I begin?
I’m sorry...
...for any and everything I’ve ever done to ruin your life
...I’ve done things out of my own selfishness and I’m not proud of it
When I met you I had the biggest crush on you...
...there was never a “right time” to act on it
...there was always someone else...
...so I settled for being your friend
You graduated and we lost contact for a minute
...but when the time came, we picked back up as if nothing ever left off
You became one of my best friends
There wasn’t anything that I couldn’t tell you
..and there was absolutely nothing that I wouldn’t do for you
I guess that’s where I went wrong
Things that you “needed” I took upon myself to “give” you
I know it was wrong and there’s not a day that goes by that I wish it never happened
I constantly question the type of person I am
Truth is, I don’t know
I don’t know who I am anymore
...one thing I do know is that
You are one of the most important people in my life and if I could take back everything that I’ve done I swear I would.
I never meant to cause so much turmoil in your life
I know she probably thinks that I am a horrible person and probably hates my guts
...all I can say is that I’m sorry
All I want is for you to be happy
...which is why I suggested that you tell her
...I want what yall have to be better than what I have
...I want the union between you two to be pure
...no lies, no secrets... nothing
...and if it means I have to lose my best friend, then I guess that’s something that I have to live with for the rest of my life
...my soul is hurting and I can’t control my tears as I type this but I truly am sorry
You’ve expressed to me that you felt like your life was falling apart because of what we did...
...it hurt my feelings when you said this to me but as I sit back and think about it, you were probably right
...all I can do is hope that you forgive me
Please tell her that I am truly sorry and I’m really not a bad person
