I am in love with a man
I am in love with a man.
A man that I shouldn’t love,
A man who broke my heart in to a million shards,
And brought my world crashing down,
A man who now belongs to someone else
And yet I love him,
Despite the heartache
The tears and the hatred,
I love him,
I love him even though I know he cannot be mine
It’s a funny thing, love
A feeling that as a child you dream of drowning in,
But as an adult you learn to fear.
A feeling that once smothered with,
It’s longing, desire and needs,
Grips you tight and shows a great unwillingness
To let you be free.
Love is clever.
It can trick you in to thinking,
You hate your hearts desire,
Or terrify you to the point of isolation.
But love, in all it’s wicked glory,
Goes through life as a misunderstood intention.
Love is beautiful.
A feeling that swells inside you slowly and silently,
Butterflies swarming in your stomach,
Each time your eyes catch 'the one’
Or your mind flits to thoughts of them.
Your heart skips a beat,
Like a broken vinyl record caught on its needle,
With every passionate whisper of their breath,
And your body quivers with desire,
With every touch and every sweet kiss,
From their soft lips.
Love is beautiful.
So wonderful that you would do anything to keep
That love alive.
But love can be bitter.
Being away from 'the one’
Starts a storm of longing and anxiety
A feeling that your vital organs are shutting down
Causing you to pine and long
To be reunited with that necessity of a life Lin.
But too much time together
Becomes unbearable and longing to
Be together turns to
A longing to escape.
To get away for even five minutes.
Shouting, screaming
Crying, fighting
And that jealous monster deep inside
All side effects of love.
Love is a suffocation
A beautifully bitter sweet asphyxiation
Yet we all long and fear to feel it.
But if we fear it so,
Why do we fear a life without it?
Why can we not let go
Of the ones we have loved
But are unwilling to love anymore?
I like to think
That love sticks around to remind us
That 'the one’ made us happy once
That they could make us happy again
If in time we can forgive
The hurt and the shattering of hearts.
To love a man
Who is loved by another
In the eyes of god and those that care to pry
Is probably a sin
But love does not
Let you choose 'the one’
Love simply says 'he’s there’
I am in love with a man
A man who makes me laugh
A man who makes me smile
A man who makes me feel love is nothing to fear.
I am in love with a man
Even though he is loved by another
Even though he cannot be mine
I am in love with a man.
(2014)
Inspiration for this was taken from a beautiful book I once read and a few of my own heartbreak experiences.
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