Covergirl
I’m such a covergirl.
I’m a cover girl
But I cover all these bruises and wounds I have all over my body.
Scars and tears on my face
That can be replaced with the makeup I put on
To mask all the pain I really feel.
Beautiful on the outside and tore within.
I just really want somebody I can finally let my guard down with and hear me out and listen.
I’m the girl that everybody wants
The fun girl that turn the party up.
But also the girl that cries in silence
And emotions erupts
In private.
The girl that get done wrong
But continue to be the nicest.
I don’t complain
Because I’m a cover girl
A cover girl
Keeps up with herself
On the outside
Even though, I really don’t wanna go outside
Because every time I go out side
I feel outside my body .
These big brown eyes, and you still can’t see the sadness I’m feeling each day.
And the tears I cover up
I hide under my covers 90 percent of the time
Because I don’t want to show off my best friend of them all
Vulnerability.
Vulnerability gets me in huge trouble each time.
So I rather cover myself up.
I’m such a cover girl.
I wanna be a cover girl without hiding my true self.
I wanna be able to let my guard down every once in a while.
I’m getting tired and hot hiding in these covers.
Can I come out of these covers for you?
I was inspired to write this specific poem, In honor of myself. I see how I can mask my pain and trauma by covering it all up. Specifically with makeup.. my tears and cuts etc, I just want to be vulnerable with somebody and be myself 100% without having to change. Everybody also say how beautiful I am.. but don’t know how blue i am on the inside .. how desperately I want to truly love myself.. I want to love myself and I want somebody to embrace me for me.
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