Dear Lover
Why does your heartbeat sound like gunshots
In dark empty alleys every time I lay my head on your chest?
I’m here listening as you breathe
And I try to keep my breathing in step with yours, but I can’t
It feels like oxygen masks on highjaked planes
Whenever I try keeping up
Is this the part where even our breathing differs?
A tear escapes the corner of my eye
Like water dripping off stained windows
As I cry myself to sleep I wonder
Will the weight of my tears wake you up?
But I guess you too busy shooting things up inside to hear
Or you simply don’t care
Your sleep is a troubled one, I can hear you scream
Muttering names under your breath
I want to tell you its ok, just call my name and I will
I place a comforting hand on your shoulder
But I feel you flex your muscle like a frightened child
Backing up against a high wall
Is this the part where the same shoulder that carried me
In times tough now quiver as I stroke it
With the uncertainty of your reaction?
Why does your stare feel like stray bullets whenever you look at me?
Like shattering glass vases on hard concrete
I want to apologize but for what I don’t exactly know
I watch you as you soundly sleep on
Too scared to face the day?
Or are you dreaming of girls prettier than me?
Girls with long flowing dresses with padded shoulders and padded bosoms
Is this the part where our efforts amount to nothing
Where the battles we fought back to back in
Leave us with cuts and bruises to nurse
At the foot of our bed?
Is your heart broken? Mine is hurting too
Have you been rejected? I’m feeling the same rejection now
Are you angry at the world? I’m angry at the same world too
Should I iron the creases out of my trust?
Should I dust my heart?
Is it worth it?........
(2012)
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