Cancerous Phase
~Bruised and Crowned~
You were nothing but cancerous
You gave me cancer
A disease of the heart, body, and mind
I wonder why I’m so sick and you are the answer
You are definitely one of a kind
You made me ill in every sense of the word
Physically and literally
You tormented me
Mentally and emotionally
Without me even fully realizing it half the time
I wish I could just rewind
Go back to when I was blind
So all I can see is you
You took up my whole view
My whole line of sight
You darkened my day
And controlled my night
You controlled my life
All day, every day
I took my knife
And sliced away
At the pain
At my flesh
I was shattered
I was a mess
For so long
I ached for release
And when it finally came
I felt deceased
I felt dead
I feel death
You were all I had
You were all I had left
Because you’d stripped me of everything
Everything that made me, me
I was left with nothing
Begging down on my knees
Begging you not to leave
I watched you turn your back
I watched you walk away
Until you were out of sight
Until My body began to sway
I almost fell
Yet I still stand
My head still pounds
My heart still swells
My skin it aches
My eyes they burn
I lit myself on fire for your sake
It was a lesson well learned
You never earned
My love
You were so stern
All you did was push and shove
Me, around
You gave me bruises
While I gave you a crown
My stomach bleeds
My lungs collapse
I am terminal indeed
I begin to relapse
My time has elapsed
Just like my life
I look back at the past
And it makes me cry
All this time
Wasted
Wasted on you
Wasted on your toxicity
Oh isn’t that the truth
You took my creativity
And threw it in the dirt
I was high in the sky
Until you brought me back to earth
A harsh reality it seems
Cause you were cancerous
Because you smashed my dreams
My organs are failing
My heart slows
All of this is quite ailing
But I guess that’s just how it goes
I agreed to the exposure
I signed away this soul
I guess I won’t get any closure
I’ve dug myself this hole
This grave
I’m left here dying
As I’m screaming you’re
name
You are deadly
Like a car about to crash
You drain me dry steadily
My tires were slashed
I lost control
And gave it to you
We crash and burn
There’s nothing left to do
Except walk away
And await the day
I pass away from your cancerous phase
