Secrets in Wonderland
Secrets of wonderland
Concentration levels are low
Day dreaming of happiness
My long blonde hair gets caught up in the things I’m not doing
Wasted seconds turn into crushed years
Waiting
For the white rabbit
I fall down after searching for myself
But one day alI find is a never ending pit of darkness
The darkest feelings ; scared, blind, alone
The darkest visions of poison bottles and objects flying towards me, so fast I just can’t grip onto anything
I look down but I can’t see the ground
I look up to see no light
Nothing I touch is solid
But then I wake up
Crashing on dirty concrete
My hair in knots
My mind bruised
Forever in pain
Reality hurt me
I walk
I run
But I’m not quick enough to jump through hoops
To run through doors
To breathe in
To smile
I’m enclosed in my minds neverending sickness
Nothing makes sense
Instead I’m surrounded by illusions
The doors have opened
But into a world of deadly magic
This adventure is no succession
I’m not learning anything but jumbled up thoughts from the blue caterpillar
Eating my feelings with addictive mushrooms followed by a tea party to celebrate what?
But my madness
Then fake concern from the Cheshire cat
The red queen always has something to say
That’s what I’m doing wrong
What I haven’t done
What I haven’t been
What I didn’t know
Who I’m always not
She wants to kill me
But I’m already dead
She chases me
But I am already lost
Until I crash into billions of mirrors
Realization kicks in
It’s time to wake up from wonderland
Who am I
But the red queen
