Vanessa Baker

You alone

Ever have one of those days where you just want to be left alone
Where you just wanna cry your life away
Sometimes, well most of time
There nothing really wrong
but EVERYTHING’s wrong
Nothings right
all your feelings all your thoughts are just all jacked up.
Nothing stay still
You bounce from one thought to another
From a glimpse of happiness
To a world of sadness
Confusion
The feeling of being misunderstood,
Feeling misplaced.
Incomplete, foolish, childish ... Stupid
Feeling like the impression you put upon yourself
Is no longer the way you want to be looked at
Wish you could have perceived your self in a better vision
The vision you see your self as
Feeling like everybody’s looking nowhere but down on you
As if you could never live up to there expectation
As if you don’t qualify in there books
You could never meet the definition of there standards
Who are you to the rest of world?
Nobody.
And you feel like you let that nobody over come that somebody you know you are
That strong individual, that happiness that you let surround you
The encouraged youth in you to do anything and everything thats not possible to man
The heart to see the world in every perspective every view and accept it
The soul to know you can change it
if you could change the hearts or the paths of others who have not yet opened there eyes
Too everything that surrounds them.
The smile that pushes more then yourself to live another day, but seduces everyone that stares at you too see the fights only stronger tomorrow.  
But who see’s it in you, who believes
Nobody.
In stead they take your happiness for foolish
Your lost sense in direction for dumb
Your smile for laughs
Your humor for ignorance
Your view for naive
Who has faith in you?
Nobody.
So whose fighting the world alone?
You are.
And the battles have there days
But you have not yet lost a fight
But you have those days where even though your at your winning point
Everything’s wrong
Even though you know there’s a brighter side
Nothing’s right
And even though through everything you stay strong
Pain still needs to be released, acknowledged
So you have those days where you just want to be left alone
Where you just want to cry your eyes out
Cry your life away
Cause it hurts
But when the fights over
And your deeds are done
Who dose it hurt?
The world.
And where dose then world turn?
Too you.

(2013)

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