To my father
(2013)
Not so long ago I was convinced you were the culprit, the masked robber of my sacred trust.
My father is dead, still he speaks through me; “Don’t say anything....OR ELSE!… There was plenty of “OR ELSE!” to go around.
I am crying now. I don’t know why. Am I supposed to know why it is I cry ? Though I always feel
It’s only you that I can trust to hear these words as true. Those I know seem blinded by some notion or another about me. You are my closest confidant
These words, gently laid upon this page, amount to my sincere prayer they reach within you, and touch your secret self,
I dreamed of being lost and trappe… in a land of angry fearful liars. There was nowhere to run or hide. I cowered cornered and exhausted, my back against the furthest wall;
He’s been around the block and even toured the world, with scars upon scars to show from many a hard-fought battle. Yet like many old dogs
The storm is brewing. I smell it in the air. I am panicking. I can barely breathe. I fear this tempest
My beloved, she has abandoned me. What’s left is a stark white canva… that repels application of hue or… Hopelessly, I gaze into the bleak… She is gone,
It seems for ages, I have been trapped behind yet another version of what I want to think I know. I was so sure I loved you
The storm is brewing. I smell it in the air. I am panicking. I fear this tempest might cost my life.
That blue-gray rainy day, the blue-gray funeral parlor. There you were laid out in blue and gray. So still.
I am awash with tears of mourning for what I thought was dead and go… as though a flood of holy water has broken through the stony dam I contrived to spare this brittle…
I met a man who told me that he’s looking for the way he might become more free, less encumbered in his life. Poor me, poor me, poor me;
I’m not really here right now. I can only be here when no-one’s a… and I know no-one can see me. Even when i speak to you, I’m sort of not really here.