"Childish Parenthood"
I grew up with abuse and Alcoholic images burned into my mind by those who say "They love me". I want to be better than them. Mostly I grew up without my biological father because he
"Couldn't handle being a dad" or "Wasn't ready". I wanta be better tha
All I’ve ever wanted...
Ever since I was even a child,
Was to hear a little voice
Call me “dad”....and smile
I’d picture, I’d laugh,
I’d Make funny faces,
I’ll be there for the moments
I’ll spend time, bodacious
Birthdays and holidays
I’ll always be there,
I’ll always love him/her
I hoped to be prepared
And even If Daddy’s not
That’s still okay,
Cuz I’ll have my kids back
I’ll be there on their first and last day....
Ill be the one that cares
One that never disappears,
I’ll be that one to come home
And say “kids I’m here!”
I’ll spend time with them
I’ll be there throughout the years.
I choose not to smoke
Not to drink or do weed,
Just another necessity
I’ll pay for, if I fall weak...
You’d understand what I mean
If you knew we’re I was from,
Long nights dwell in turmoil
My thoughts are just done...
The lack of care and love
Showed me to be better,
My step father and real mother
Were always Together
Even if they fought and yelled
Screamed and upset her...
He’d always find a way,
Cuz the love dove has it’s flower feather....
I was harassed as kid growin up
Beat up in many places,
Even in my conscience
I still contemplate this,
I used to walk home from stores
6 year old, gracious,
Walking to and from
All the way like Natives...
Mom didn’t know at all
Couldn’t blame her,
Not like I was goin to
But I just have to be sure,
That I don’t go crazy
That I don’t get referred
To be treated as a patient
At Tuckers for burns.
So in conclusion,
You may not understand,
If I had the chance at hand
Id take it, no time to revamp,
Cuz when I become a daddy
I’ll be there to see my kid stand......
At a young age and older
A baby takes their FIRST stand,
Stands in the living room
Right in front of the fan
Inside the apartment
watching Barney, kids on demand
They’ll walk to their mother and I
The feeling, no one can comprehend
To see them stand up!
Up on the stage of high school,
To get that degree and throw a hat
Senior week, no rules...
Well there’s boundaries
But time to have fun,
Experience this life
And remember us in the long run
Come over and eat dinner
Whenever you have the time son,
You grew up fast as your imagination...
“Fee-fi-fo-fum!”
Cuz ever since I was a child....
All I wanted was a dad,
But instead I sat on the porch
And waited for that,
I waited for the moments
The moments that passed
I SURE AS HELL WILL DO EM
only 100,000 times with rap!
i hope to make it big
Then make my kids life mean more,
Be able To go to the store
And actually able to afford
Food and supplies, clothes
And a bed,
I used to sleep on the floor
At Town House... instead....
I’d set my kid up,
To not become spoiled,
To not bombard his thoughts
To remain loyal,
To promise to my kid...
That I’ll never look away,
I’ll be there to help him/her
With all of their grades
And even if I don’t have the answers
I’m still here to provide
I’ll be there incase a nightmare
I am the Teddy by his/her side
All I’ve ever wanted...
Even since I was a child....
Was to hear a little voice
Call me “dad” and smile....
All I’ve ever wanted...
Was to be something more....
I am already way stronger...
Stronger than before...
Daddy’s here kids
I’ll WILL ALWAYS BE THERE,
If you have some thoughts
I’m here if your scared,
Cuz I know I’ll be a true dad...
One that lies near....
In your heart and mind....
This is probably made clear.....
I love you...........
And that’ll never change...
Cuz daddy’s got your back
In life you’ll experience pain...
You’ll live throughout it all
Refrain from the reign,
And come out on the other side....
......daddy’s love will always remain........
(2013)
Parents make mistakes, no one is perfect...but the mistakes they made with me... Cannot be overlooked as a "sorry" or any apology of some sort. They could've changed me for the good and actually cared....but no. I learned on my own.
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