Astray
Why is it that as I strive for salvation and relief, I become more and more lonely and confused. If these things I’ve learned as a child are the true purity and safe haven, why does it seem I’m the only one who truly obeys? I stray now and then but return and ask forgiveness. Although that is what I see happen. People stray as far as they can and come back to God’s unfailing and eternal forgiveness. In my mind I plan, “it’s okay, I can do it, and then apologize and repent. Then just do it again.” But I can’t do it. I can’t take advantage of the Lord’s gift like that. I’m not that kind of son. He is the shepherd, I am but a sheep that must follow Him. I know what to do, I know how to follow. Yet I find myself trying to outsmart the one that knows all! I’m a fool! His job is to lead, and He has lead. My job is to follow His unchanging and path. Why are the powers of evil so strong? Why is it so easy for a child of God to be so helplessly lead astray? The path is clear that He has left. Why am I so ignorant as to be misguided?
