Life, nature and existence in itself has no purpose or meaning, no goal, infinite meaninglessness; pointless universal creation; So for some this in itself could be a reason of sadness, pain, sorrow, demotivation, a darkness so deep as hollow souls who cry so hard and that gets manifested trough this cursed, sinister, unblessed world; I feel empathy for them; I try to put myself in their boots for and just for a while yet at the same time I find a light on it because it is a truth, a paradoxical one, the revelation come to me from me, from my own interior, from my guts, the ultimate answer to the question of the reason of all philosophies and sciences; If life nature and existence has no meaning then it is like a indifferent Demon or an evil God, alike, evilness!...of some sort; the meaning of meaninglessness!; the reason of unreason, in purpose putting there this nonsense of reality, Then became in this transformation all that always was, this alchemy of my intelligence where my heart, mind and intuition rejoice aligned; Ah!... This discovery of countless nights of investigation, of thinking, the greatest and original source of all for me to keep on living!, my salvation; I have save myself right now from suicidal thoughts & this new yet primal source of life, nature and existence overflow in me, creation and destruction if I feel like it, infinite meaningfulness that I have found, all high energy, activity and productivity as no time before someone has witness with projects and goals materializing from my ideal world to the reality, from the beginning to the end or better to say endlessness, eternal power, wisdom, courage as one now in my hands, on my dominion, motivation from every side of every dimension that is me in itself, that came to me!; Purpose, passion, love and happiness; Get the meaning of meanings!; You have to be totally ready for it, instead of the sad truth, you get the happy truth!, so already then, alright then, almighty then!, where even goodness and holiness is just this malice! where I get what I want instantly and what I do I do it wanting it, a impressive sentiment... a glorious realization, I have finally find it!; The occultist treasure!, the most important thing in all the worlds; The magnifical key!, the forgotten knowledge who will always be remembered, a prohibited knowledge unveiled, that I was only hiding my smile of calmness malignity, the trinity of all art, music and writing, a genial euphoria that do I presume has liberated me, ancestral radiation of fantastical phenomena, the beginning of immortal, countless and timelessness surreal apocalyptic dystopias were when surpassed the struggle comes at last novel utopias of immense & intense perpetual tales of triumphal space gothic non-humanist adventures, a renaissance of an era who was or has only being dream it about it, this is the white light at the end of the dark tunnel, the why to all questions, the point-fullness of the universal creation where everything that exist, existed or will exist has now the words of his title in red bloody letters; A laughter of victorial malice!, representation of the beautiful golden all, who is I!, the legendary sangreal, Jumal!.