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My attention is torn
My patience worn
Two magnets so strong
Scared to put a foot wrong
See my vision wasn’t long
Didn’t account for you to come along
By myself I’ve learned to be strong
Now suddenly it all seems wrong
Can’t comprehend how this can be
Had a bad innings you see
Used to shit hands being dealt to me
Now suddenly
I cannot see
For the surplus of opportunity
Life has given me
How ridiculous it must seem
For me to be so panicky
Over what was once barely a dream
The chance to be
More than just me
To have a purpose
Be a part of a team
Except which team is it to be
Nurture younger generations
Or to start my own family
I know I’m jumping the gun but my mind tends to run
Can’t have it both ways and I wasn’t ready to say
Where my heart truly lies; the imminance magnifies
What I can only describe
As a decision so terrifying
Because I do not regret
Though not because I don’t dither
It’s just I tend to believe
In the path which makes my heart quiver
The one which lights up my soul
And makes my time here feel whole
Except I cannot foresee
Nor believe it to be
That I could live happily
Without either of these
I freeze
But don’t fall
I’ll observe
And stand tall
I must hedge my investment
Equally in direction
It’s too much, and too soon
To leave no room to move
I need to move
I need to breathe
I want to run
Responsibility gripping me
I need some space
I’m smothered; cannot see
My focus for now
Must be finding room to be
