So Much For Honesty
Wanted me buried, buried in LEAD,
Bury my story, bury it dead,
Lock on my mouth– seal it with seal,
Beat the submission deep in my heels,
Make me to hide in myself all my fear,
Live with my shame, cry bloody tears,
Rope round my neck and a rag in my throat,
Make words do gargle, make screams go flood,
Ragged and painful, fierce and mad,
Beating my skull in until it cracks,
Bury me silent, bury me flat,
So I don’t get up and tell stories sad,
Nails in my eyesockets, body tight wrapt -
Like a blind mummy bury my wrath,
Bury my anguish, my desperation,
So it does not interrupt your oration,
Bury me slowly burning in hell,
Bury my ordeals that never end,
Bury me standing, and with me too,
By shameful, undecent, detestable TRUTHS!
