I act like I don’t care so much
That I’m beginning not to
It’s just that the days drag on
And I can’t get any rest
I’m exhausted
I’m hallucinating
I’m getting high just to feel numb
But now I’m always numb
What do I even feel?
I can’t tell if I’m happy or sad
But I know something isn’t right
I don’t want help
I need to get help
But I don’t know where to start
I don’t even have the energy
To understand my own thoughts
Is it because of the choices that I’ve made in the past
Or maybe the choices I’ll make in the future