Just Want To…
Just want to close my eyes n hold my breath
Just to escape from all this fucking mess
Just want to make my head stop from shaking
Just make my brain stop from thinking
I don’t want to be happy n then mean
Don’t want to be sad n then turn into something I am scared to be
I try so hard not to cry
I try to avoid the thoughts of not wanting to die
Every night before I go to bed I get so scared just thinking what shit is going to happen next
I can’t understand why shit happens to me
I’m so fucking tired I’m to a point where I just want to be
So I close my eyes n hold my breath just wishing n praying for god to let me rest
I have so much in my head I want to explode but I learned that keeping quiet is the best way to not let no one know.
(2014)
Something happened to me a weekend ago, and every since then it hit a trigger I have changed so much since then. It is to a point where I am sick of everything and everyone. I just don't want to be bothered and I just run.
