#ChildhoodUnstableHouseholdChildhoodTrauma
i think i do my best to be good wh… it’s not shaped for my kind of rag… it has no place for sickness, and… i drown in it, i suffocate in it. paradise is not a hospice, but i a…
insomnia, violence, puncture wound… a razor, eating your organs raw, a… impatient, obsessive, humiliating.
trying not to cry in the holiday i… my mama said something mean again
i am scared of you now, of this stranger who has taken you… those familiar eyes now watch me,… your loose hold now tight and the… this beast of grief has eaten you…
staying alive is the most terrifyi…
i’m waiting for the good part, i’m praying real hard that it’s st…
you ask me if i have dreams and i start telling you about the… that haunt me when i try to sleep but then you look at me and laugh uncomfortably and say,
i am beginning to blur at the edge… i’ve been becoming something of lo… i think i’ve wanted this storm lon… that it will wash me away with it.
it’s embarrassing but, god i love, love, love you i’ll swear on everything i own, and everything i’ve ever wanted that i love you in ways i didn’t t…
it’s ugly how time moves. how places that you used to fit in… the kitchen cabinets, the space between your closet shel… don’t fit you anymore.
just puked up cookie batter; sending my love to illinois.
i am the parasite and i am the hos… i’m cold and my hair is falling ou… i haven’t eaten in awhile but my t… no one knows how to pull this hung… because i am the sickness and i am…
“i hope they don’t turn out like y… and yeah, i think, that’s about ri… i hope they don’t either.
he kissed along my scars and asked… i tangled my fingers in his hair a…
sometimes i think, when i’m sitting here doing jacksh… that you are only here with me, sticking it out, cause you’re hoping i’ll be someon…