(2013)
I pretend I know everything, Or that I can do anything, But I don’t, And I can’t. Sure I may act
In my ear, Ana whispers And tells me just Be thinner, dear But I fear
Running through a forest Of never ending trees And everlasting green Some people fall And some turn back
I walk through rivers, valleys, fo… Exploring all my thoughts Dreaming peacefully Things made up and memories Talking to friends and enemies
I want to try The simple cut Not a cry for help But a physical release From the prison
To tell the truth Most things are easy And I’m the one To destroy simplicity And blow things far
I’m like a broken plate That you threw on the ground Because you were upset But no matter what you do You can never fix it
Scars on legs And scars on arms Incisions on bodies And stitches for sealing Cuts and scrapes
The air conditioner blows On high And the sound Reminds me of small monsters. A clattering starts
I want to be the one You tell your problems to, Because no one else seems to liste… I want to be the one Who understands you,
Sitting on the bed And sometimes laying down The chill from the AC Is too uncomfortable I recoil from the breeze
Long thin lines Across skin Placed there Upon day’s end Old ones pink
Sometimes I feel myself Willing to cry And sad over nothing I can remember That would make me upset
In the morning wake And breathe fresh air To distract my thoughts From a recent nightmare Then go through processes
Passing Time I spend my days Falling through the glass That is our fragile world Chasing something