How I am now, por Carly Dean | poemas, ensayos y cuentos en Poéticous

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Carly Dean

How I am now

Because of you.

Fuck this life of mine.

I am done trying, done denying, done trying to survive.

This world fucking hates me and you know what, I threw in the towel and I am fine.

At least now I’ll be the one to try and keep me alive.

I was so fucking scared of what you would think of what I really was.

But you know what, I don’t give a fuck anymore, I will just go get happy off a buzz.

Because of what I feel, I just quit.

I am fucking sick of it.

I tried being the nice girl, the one who always tried.

But that girl vanished when no one was there to help her.

That girl sat there on her bed every fucking night and cried.

That girl is now just a blur.

In this girl’s place stands the cold bitch of the night.

The girl who will not fucking bow, will not cave..

The girl that is willing to fucking stand and fight.

The girl who won’t stop, and will fight until you are in a six foot grave.

So sit there and think of how I am now.

How did I get here you ask?

Or do you just not care, and if that’s the fact, i will take a bow.

Yeah fuck you too, all I need is my flask.

(2013)

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