Eyes.
so no proof read. quick save
here is your last supply
my distant pair of eyes
that you might wanna believe I’ve always known
you built on lies.
but not the lies youd have me believe
yet what you should’ve realized
was it mattered not.
the heart cannot choose for who it dies.
if it does
where is the rule book
too bad I can feel your fear.
see straight through you.
I know all your cues
but I always have.
a fatal mistake in your design.
was someone who always saw your lies
and accepted you
so now it’s you who run
its you who fears.
but still it was never a fight to me
nor a jump to clear.
it matters not
there hasn’t been a tear
but more fallen for you than I.
for it is you who still die.
over and over and over
til you see your biggest lie?
was to yourself.
And to suffer blind
not knowing why
is a fate for you that i
could not bear to watch
I cannot watch you die.
I can watch lies.
because it bothers me not
if you say Im a stranger you despise
for this stranger I don’t recognize
because it was never I.
let me show you what it’s like.
I’ll become that for you
so you may regret
youre just to weak to get up
you just swim your depths.
the ones I saw
what did you think I liked?
the fools story of over excitement, love and tries?
no it’s your demons I surmise
that were hypnotized.
not to save you
nor you save I?
where do you get this foolish notions of
from this cliche rulebook of childish love
the cycle stagnant must be broken
only then will it become
what it must, be born or be undone.
I’m calling judgement on myself
speak on my name and try
when I accept guilt
how are you built
I did this.
I did this in purpose.
I became the stone.
the cold you expected of me.
did you not know why I said what I said
so you would see?
I did what I did to dig my grave in my bed
for the rest of my sleepless nights alive
beat you at your own game of the self
without ever knowing it. I tried.
some were truth but most were lies
I give you my eyes.
see what I see.
those words I said in anger.
from my imagination
rotted deeply to cause a rift.
one I could not bear to watch..
haunted by the what’s if?
I said so much I did not mean
but what does it matter..
but things aren’t what they sent.
it I could have a clean slate in anything Ive ever done?
id choose you
not even consciously.
you’re the one ill never forget.
you won’t let
me.
wake up an look at me
stop with the running.
you know?.
jut leave me be
I set you free.
but come back to me.
there isn’t another.
what is this?
a curse or a gift
if only things were different
id you could feel the earth shift.
you feel like home in the rooms of stranger.
I cannot go on so I had to lift
myself from this pain
I only saw as a gift
here are my eyes
so cannot fool myself again
i covered all bases, I truly gave you hell
oh you did not know I myself can sabotage
i can go against my faith against all odds..
all stacked in your favor.
you could never just savor.
going into the flow.
youre wrong you know?
this was meant to be.
now the world is screaming at us.
we took a mistep or three
half of those things I said
I didn’t even know you know.
I didnt even mean
certainly
I wish for foolish eyes
I wish for an ignorant mind
so I could see your smile as insulting
instead of screaming inside.
sacrifice the world
to help you through the tide
but you gave me the tools long ago
to simply set it aside
and let it go
tell me you don’t remember how it used to feel.
no lie.
no phony ties.
I felt you and you felt I
do you always lie
to save yourself?.
how does a coward feel when he cannot look you in the eye
because they know
you were pure inside
scared? yes
secretly terrified.
because the cowards fear is one he doesn’t realize.
this is the part I always loved
this is the part I waited for.
just so I could tell you
loving you was not a chore.
hating you was
even as you act a fool.
played it cool
I grew out of that long ago.
vulnerability isn’t a weakness
it’s a power.
and it’s one I never regret
day by day, hour by hour
I’ve no reasons to forget
no reason to collide and let
the sorrow drown me.
for I am me, and I will not change
just to fit a mold you alone need
unless it’s a rightful change.
when it’s my sickness I bleed.
I don’t want any attention
it was you who had my eyes
I didn’t want a string of hearts
to wear around my thighs
I only wanted yours around my neck
where it could be seen by other eyes.
you didn’t realize.
you would not have fought so hard to hate
you would have not fought only to die inside.
unless you could not bare the waves you’ve cried.
you were already dead inside
it was you and I that made you alive.
it wasn’t feelings you played with.
it was the truth you know and so do I.
i saw you thrive
lts why you cannot honestly deny.
it wasnt wise
it isn’t me now who cries.
i saw you thrive
so did all.
deny deny deny.
its hard to pretend.
when the proof is right there
be fair.
not to me.
be fair to you.
let go of useless pride
before you hang yourself by it
and never die before your time.
lover, friends, enemies, strangers?
you truly haven’t realized?
I was never looking at that
just simply what was.
never felt it before.
I opened up a door I had never seen.
and found light.
in myself.
all that mattered is I kept it lit.
in a mirror before you.
for you to see when
you could not see yourself.
to give you my eyes.
to help you see your own lies.
not about me.
but about yourself.
as a parting gift.
I give you my eyes.
so maybe you’ll step off the gallows
and into full light.
I think you played until you realized
this time you could not play.
this time you truly fell away.
so I give you my eyes.
I give you my light.
I give you my mistakes.
each one will help you see yourself alive.
you don’t have to deprive.
yourself of a soul to feel alive.
you tried too hard to make me feel sad inside
and in doing so revealed your hand.
that water will wash the sand.
from beneath your feet.
and it is in water I make a solid foundation
it is in the cold I define heat
it is time for a transformation.
i am wrapped, protected to be reborn.
you need a revelation
so your splittered spirit finds integration.
why would I show you my best side.
when I see what you try so hard to hide.
its a battle you made up.
but ill pretend it exists
my wars been won
because I surrendered my side
a white flag.
your remorse is one of pride.
so take them please.
see through my eyes.
missing vital information?
so were you.
so you could not reconcile
I’ll forever empathize.
and the truth.
is too much to feel
or generalize.
do not give up.
cut these ties
but keep my eyes.
energy ascension
but are you here
or did you die
shy, away.
try to be sly
get a foolish prize.
instead of
answer ancient.
binding ties
Walk in the light?
No this I am not meant
I myself am light.
And I walk in the dark
Hear hidden motive and bad intentions
I see entire the dark design and ugly inventions
And then I glow
I know not how to be anything else you know?
There is nothing else i can do.
What is given in hate comes back
What is given in purity comes back.
I destroy all that’s meant to destroy me.
It’ll turn darker
You pretend.
Walk on me?
I walk on by.
But I was always looking right at you.
And all you had to do was set yourself free.
Kill what you love the most.
The self
All this damage I feel
It’s not what I wanna see.
But it had to be believed
Let go of the negative.
Runners trip.
I stay in no one’s grip
But I will hold someones hand.
I cannot be blinded
I stand where I stand
Take my eyes.
So you can understand
Blindsided and still won a game
Because it was never my shame
Cheat your own manifestations
Cheat yourself.
Then shift the blame.
It is not I who changed
I feel the strange
In the currents
A sense of deranged
I feel the intrusion
There still is no confusion
Stand up
Why play with a faith that cannot stray
I cannot be used up
I do not diminish
With all taken for free
Try to curse my name
For it cannot be through.
Wish it with all the heart
But it was never the heart
So it cannot be cut.
Nor ripped apart.
Irritated demons
Lurk away
You don’t have admit all the lies
I already know.
Shadows play
But cannot be seen unless there is light.
Have my eyes.
So you watch you watching me.
Tell me what you see.
Truth is truth.
And the show must go on
And the curtain closed.
why my eyes?
why because only then could you realize
what truly awaited you once through the emptiness
the negative, prying glances, the wrong, the light
you could never knowthe pure that came next
the endless intimate.
didnt you know?
I stand with my back against the wall, naturally
but Im pushing off and I’m making my own plate
I must take time
my future is at a cross roads?
but will you be in my future or past?
does anything ever last?
it was pure in and you know it
pure with smirking laughter and passionate frustration
the flip flop of late and hate.
something pure yet something tainted.
no good came come with out work and clashes
our flashed the light of a bomb being detonated
all the time to prove we can burn it all down to start again.
and that my friend is truly rare, dated.
to the end, or begin
wll it takes is to try to understand the solar flare
so steal your care only to hand it over to once again share
its there a way to show you just how this is a stair
walks up and down until I see you there
to be warned every act I always share
once that last barrier is broken
ill give you my genuine eyes
so you may see me what is real
so you may feel. what it truly there
and feel the truth in what you thought were lies.
take my.eyes.
the wrong sets in, the darkness takes soul
oh what is a black hole but anything that sucks light.
a fight? for certain but the love that builds up.
that could would never run away
your were the one yet youll see it too late.
because you too believed late.
love and hate?
or everything we should
leave to fate.
low vibrations would see that unnerving.
undeserving
but never you.
all you had to do was speak it.
hint it..then slowed down
all you ever wanted.
but I would go no further on a guess.
that’s a mess.
not a promise just yet.
just a let’s not give up.
not just yet.
more than friends .less than love
but you’re the only one
you’re the only one.
not about love.
you’re the only me.
I’m you.
that’s terrifying.
there is a readekm
now can see.
it’s within me.
and God knows why..but just walked away now.
where else is there to go..
let go of me you let go of your self.
you know
o I just feel you
even when apart.
it’s the souls part
not the shallow heart
love many
but only one can live in the soul.
not a perfect fit. oh. no.
that was your mistake.
I never said that.
you don’t say such so soon
it wasn’t like that.
it was in the rays of the moon.
just alike
on a walk with youself
but the same. same clothe. same place.
never pieces found to m
not the broken, in need of saving
take my eyes.
foolish
the villain you said I was
the fool you were?
the truth knows better.
Have my eyes.
So you watch you watching me.
Tell me what you see.
Truth is truth.
The curtain closes
but there is a rope you see.
And the show must go on
with or with you or me.
—C.R.S
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