You First.
Working on short blunt stuff ..im figuring out the short stuff...this is actually a month or so old. But. Shrug
I’m still putting you first.
Know youre a curse
but I’m still putting you first
You want so bad to run me away
But I can’t I’m here to stay
It’s not my choice anyway
I’m still putting you first.
I wish my logic could tell my heart
You ripped them apart
Drowned my mind in the dark that binds me to you
We are the same crazy.
The same insanity.
We just portray it in different maladies
Fears that I feel too
To the emotions sick falling in two
I can’t take care of you
When you look away
Nor stare at your thirst.
As you taught me the empathy I never knew
What a curse .
I’m still putting you first.
As it you were my very first
Felt like I never knew what compassion ever was.
Until you
I’ll continue to put you first.
So. Do your worst.
Maybe I’ll grow a brain one day.
What have you done to me.
Give yourself applauds
Never been done before.
Be proud.
But your making the wrong choice
And no matter what I’ll still put you first.
I tried to quit.
I did I gave you my all.
To help you have last call.
But it was all
Not much.
Still tried.
Through every lie
And abuse.
I apologize.
It’s in my eyes
I still put you first.
You don’t wanna know what I saw in yours.
But we won’t talk about that.
Still first.
I really did.
My love unwavering.
I am not unnerved.
Solid as our insomnia.
Do your worst little Romi.
I’ll handle your curse.
Even though you try to run.
Well run.
Or show me what I know still lurks.
In the shadows of your mind.
Hidden even from yourself.
You may find.
While I’m putting you first.
I’m still your curse.
As well.
But a Nice try, doomed.
You ever do it?
I still would not expect to forget me anytime soon.
C.R.Stanger.
Short but still more of my therapeutic writing...more for myself than others as they repeat alot and are long and mainly just me working through stuff but I still wanna save it somewhere. I love these classical pics of women ...I never tire of them. So pretty
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