My heart MY feelingins
Me to you <3
9/12/13
I never thought it would happen to me I thought my time has passed it seems not because I opened my heart again. Scared because it came from no where so much i didn’t even see it slap me in the face but i did feel it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have such a heavy heart i long for long Love I wear my heart on my sleeve I trust first learn second. I may not have done the right things but until I made my mistake I realized I wanted NO one else but you in my life from that day forward. I have tried to make things right knowing you took your heart back just having you as a friends I still made mistakes as a friend I hurt myself more than you with my mistakes. I can only believe that I hurt my self more than you because I didn’t know how you felt you kept me at arm distance. Still as a friend for years I still Loved you so much wanted nothing more than to be a part of your life in anyway at this point to share your passion to take any an all time you were going to give me. As it seems I get mad I wanted to know you cared somehow feel something from you love, hate, jealousy or friendship so I would get hit by yet making another
mistake. In all this time I hurt so much still alone you still not understanding me or why I have done any of this I was so blinded by Love I was stupid When you give me a sense of peace of who I am I remember what love is showing me I do matter passion that shared a soul I can look into. you make me feel all those cute silly thing about love i smile talking about i feel like a princess around you like i am the only one there with you on at that moment your lips your hug the way you tell stop it or shut makes me laugh and feel loved when you lay me on the bed i feel butterflies and scared but passion like i never have. I don’t want to lose it but I don’t know either i can just wait hope that you be honest with me! your friendship I always want but if your love isn’t an option I know I hope and wait until you tell me in your words cause these are mine I Love you and without you as a friend I don’t feel complete.....
L.A
(2013)
