Do You Ever?
Do you ever get that feeling deep down inside your gut that feels like someone is ripping you apart from the inside. No one can see it, but you feel it deep. It’s so unbearable at times and you’re just standing there dying and trying not to break down in tears. Thoughts are in your mind that make you want to puke. Pain is in your heart that make you want to stroke out. Words can’t describe these feelings sometimes. Just agonizing pain, that so many times become continuous. It goes on and on no matter what you do to stop it. The hurt inside that you try to hide begins to consume you and eat you alive without anyone around you even noticing. Do you ever feel that? Do you ever get that? I feel it. I get it. I can’t bare it at times. Trying to be strong for others and hide it behind smiles and lies, it’s crushing. Not wanting anyone to know, to see, to feel pain because of you. Not wanting anyone to see such awful things inside someone that are too gruesome to bare. Not wanting anyone to know what demons live within you. Not wanting anyone to feel any pain or pity for you and what’s inside you. It can become such a heavy weight to carry and try to hide that you are struggling to hold it up, struggling to stand, to move....to breathe. Do you ever?
