To be numb is to feel safe,
letting your mind and
all the hate reappear and disappear
like the sun does on a cloudy day.
To feel safe is to let go,
create a world for yourself
that can agree to disagree.
with all that troubles you.
But to let go is also to forget,
allow the darkness that overshadows you
and smothers you to roam freely and
dangerously close to what you consider reality.
What I consider reality?
Wanting to be someone you’re not,
to feel accepted by strangers
and feel loved when you
can’t find the ability to love yourself.