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My Inner Demons Tormenting Me
How do I quiet my inner demons how do I lay them to rest?
They whisper to me thoughts of betrayal and distrust.
They haunt me from a past where I played the game–
a time when there was no love and no shame.
They remind me of the lies that I told back then–
to call back the memories of my betrayals again.
They want me believe her to be duplicitous–
to convince me that there is too much permissiveness.
Now the demons trouble me with fears–
sometimes bringing me to tears.
They keep me awake at night thinking–
at times I try to drown them with drinking.
They want me to look for deception and lies–
to make me worry until my calmness dies.
They get me to review everything in my head–
to get me to disbelieve what she said.
They are trying to convince me that I am being played–
being lied to, deceived, and betrayed.
They torment me with worry of being naïve–
to make me over think and misperceive.
I have been nothing but straight and true–
my demons tell me that I’ll just get hurt by another untrue.
I let down my walls and allowed another in–
these demons can only concentrate on a win.
I need to let go of the past, the worries, and the stress–
I want to trust completely and think much less.
I have to let what it be what it will be–
I must remember that we are all free.
To not worry about what anyone else does, but me.
