Coward
you cannot face your actions
you cannot face your life
you cannot face the consequences
when you bring me strife
you stir the pot then turn and run
leave me to clean the mess
you rip my heart and life to shreds
but still you can’t confess
you cannot tell me what you’ve done
to help me in it’s wake
you can’t admit the lies you’ve told
not even for my sake
you sit and watch my life unfold
and stay just out of reach
I trusted you and you were cold
our bond of love to breach
you made me out the monster
so you could be the saint
you could not face the picture
of me you chose to paint
you cannot face your friends
and tell them of your crime
you cannot give me what you take
you’re running out of time
you know that I am hurting
but the price for you is great
you think that I’ll survive
if you ignore me and wait
you know that I’ve been there for you
you know my love is true
you assume that I will just forgive
no matter what you do
you should have stood beside me
my banner waiving high
you should have been my partner
not leaving me to cry
you should have seen me needing you
and stood beside me strong
instead you pushed me far away
and told me I was wrong
you never once defended me
or responded to my cries
you couldn’t face your artwork
the product of your lies
you told me to be quiet
no opinion was I due
and if I hurt your special friends
then you and I were through
this makes me expendable
to this I will not bow
I will not take the blame
nor your cowardice allow
No longer will I settle
for what you throw to me
if you want me to be there
then you give equally
my trust in you is broken
and repairs must come from you
you know what you’ve done
and you know what you must do
time is slipping slowly by
my patience running thin
and if you choose to let us die
that price is for your sin
so make your choice but don’t ask me
how this damage to undo
ask yourself instead what I
would do if I were you
(2004)
written during what was, to date, the darkest time in my life. I was forced to accept that people, regardless of their intelligence or awareness, can be such cowards in life. I am not sure how some people even live with themselves. But I now know that everything is a stepping stone toward a better life
