Betrayal
I have reached my darkest moments
I now know life is cruel
I understand you played me
and I was but your fool
you really had me going
and then you did me wrong
I thought that you were there for me
and that our love was strong
first you hung me out there
for all the world to see
and then when wolves attacked
you turned your back on me
you told them I was petty
my needs my only goal
then you put me on display
while to you I bare my soul
then as if you do not see
you let them think me small
they treat me like a leper
and you’re laughing through it all
I beg you to defend me
you say “what can I do?”
you don’t know how to fix
what I would never do to you
you tell me I am crazy
that my friends they love me dear
like you, they all ignore me
to my voice they turn deaf ear
and, as if these wounds are not enough
I now must face alone
consequences of my faith
each accusation stone
because I stood in best defense
to honor friends I claim
you all turn your backs on me
when comes the sting of blame
first you set me up to be
the butt of every joke
then you walk away from me
ignore my pain for smoke
I ask you why you cannot give
what you take so free
you tell me that you do not know
then turn your back on me
(2004)
written during what was, to date, the darkest time in my life. I was forced to accept that people, regardless of their intelligence or awareness, can be such cowards in life. I am not sure how some people even live with themselves. But I now know that everything is a stepping stone toward a better life.
