Victim blaming
For ex damsels in distress...
I started being manipulative when I learned people only cared when I cried...
Used to being ignored but I became comfortable with trauma because at least people acknowledged I was alive
Sympathy being almost like an instrument I used to play naivety being a victim made things I want come easily
I can admit I preferred how you treated me when I was hurting so I did just enough damage to myself and acted needily and took from pity greedily
But at least I still love you right?
Playing the role of victim and being traumatized gave me perks in life
So I made being distressed my way of receiving and then I wonder why I’m always grieving
My tears at times deceiving even though I actually mean them
Hoping for tragedy so you can’t be mad at me
Damned damsel in distress crying wolf successfully because the wolf was actually attacking me but realistically I could have defeated the wolf effectively
But I’d rather let it take a bite cause I’d rather you save me and comfort me
Or maybe the wolf would have prevailed but how could I know i didn’t really try
And sometimes I’m confusing because even with this ability I only sometimes use it
Hard to clock when I’m normally the strong friend who can conquer anything
But that’s just me making it harder to know when and when I’m not actually suffering
Or maybe I’m just comfortable with fucked up things
Regardless I’d rather suffer and get respect than suffer and heal myself
Well at least I used to
This piece was me trying to release the habits that I’m used to
I’m not a victim Im just living.
