Unforgiving of Self
You see its that fire that dwells inside
The reds mixed with hot yellows thats in this heart of mines
Ya’ll know Satan aint hating if we aint doing what we are suppose to
But its being unforgiving of self that stops us from swimming in scriptural pools
Its those times when he stands and claps when Jehovah isnt our muse
Its when he sees us crying about our past that makes us feel abused
In this organization....
You see its ONLY Satan thats hating
But we get so wrapped up in depression that our unworthiness becomes a passion on
A reaction of a unforgiving feeling that we can never run away from
We all have a disease of imperfection so why am I the one
to NOT forgive myself
When there is a world out there that can care less of how our creator feels, at least I do
when there is a world that can do bad all the time and not have a thought of regret nor repentance, but I do
When there are people even who claim to be Christians but dont clean themselves up, but I do
I do it all the time and yet this unforgiving spirit is mine
Its a bad thing, it can depress us so bad that we dont progress
& only in the ministry could I stop myself from being able to digress
Because I have been intertwined with feelings of never being able to be as good of a person that I use to be
Thats when I looked in the mirror and asked myself “what happend to ME?”
A bashing of my self esteem and confidence is what I do on a regular because can’t nobody explain to me that im not a sinner
Nor can they explain how this battle against life isnt a winner
Mental insecurities swallow me up with sadness but its not from others
Its from being unforgiving of self that ive been smothered
~HYPEQUEEN~
