Suicide
I saw them standing there but they didn’t see me
It was all a nightmare and what I thought was a dream
A saw my father with his head down I thought it could be
He was so strong but it did more the just weep
His whole covered with streaming liquid pain
My mother left the room with no strength to stay
My brother started at the wall he didn’t look like he was living
Wondering why how when could I have made a difference
But he couldn’t do anything to stop it wen the demons were winning
Only a matter of time before my best friend is informed
Why did I make this decision now everyone looks torn
The people would hated me are trying to take it back
But what’s the point of an apology if I can’t hear that
My teachers quit there jobs too many memories of the devastation
But now society gives me so much admiration
It’s crazy how they don’t care until it comes to this
My boyfriend leans downs and kiss the cuts on my wrist
He tells me that he loves me and will be with me soon
He leaves my side from the bed almost around noon
There’s no one to stop him not anyone else knows
What am I suppose to do when I am now only a soul
I try to get back in my body to stop him from this mistake
But it’s impossible to come back from the dead so I stand here and wait
And hour later my parents get just one more call
It’s him on the phone he said he’s sorry he let me fall
He hangs up I heard his voice crack he’s still crying
But soon enough I know I’ll hear that he’s dying
Doctors rush by with a bleeding boy on a stretcher
It’s him he’s still breathing but I saw him write a letter
The impact I had on these people I never even knew it
But I now that I do I regret that I caved in and did this
I see a light so bright I swear it’s blinding my eyes
I guess this is my time to finally say good bye
I look down one more times and blow them all a kiss
I never knew this is how much I would be missed
I want another chance to fight just a little harder
I wanted to have a family I wanted to have a daughter
I hear a beeping noise okay so now I’m really confused
I open up my eyes and I look around the room
Everyone’s fast asleep gathered around the bed
There’s a loud pounding noise inside my aching head
I’m alive but how I swear I just saw myself die
For the first time I look up and I don’t ask why
But I close my eyes and smile and give thanks for my life
Suicide is not the answer.
