Never, by Jen

Never

A reflection

You never loved me,

Only the taste of my name,

As it lingered on your slithering tongue,

Falling out, dripping,

With poisons of promises,

Never kept,

And expectations that you never met.

No implications, Did I notice at the time, Only the key strokes.

‘We’re the same’, Teetering on edges of lines, I ca… And you say again ‘we are the same… Conflating words, Of an honest one,

She melds into the rhythm, listening for a heartbeat, escaping into the fumes, her thoughts incomplete. She escaped through the cracks,

Can I just have slow sex, Long talks, Lengthy poems, And everyday walks, Can I have running through the wo…

Flying out of the nest, At sixty mph, Four hours—without rest.

I feel like I could vomit tears, But that wouldn’t suffice, For amount of years together, Exactly twice, I have no idea...

I can’t say I know, The bed where you lay, The shape, color, and patterns, That makes up your day, I can only say now,

Last Night. Was the first night I had a thous… Perforating with tender thoughts i… Last Night. Was the the first night, in my lif…

I’m always enamored with, Short periods of time, With fantasies of, Your hand in mine.

The warmth of my tea, How lovely at six a.m. Oh! The little things.

Stumbling over words, Like a child stumbles over shoe la… Left undone. Every word I want to say, Left undone.

Tried to meditate, too many different people, are inside my head.

You collect calluses, Like precious gems, Revering their form, Keeping them close, And if it wasn’t for me,

“You’re trapped.” He explains, My body is bare, I’m losing time, And losing air.

Despite the rips in between the se… I can’t escape my bones, I can’t fight the dreams, So I wait but, I can’t manage to speak,