To Aly
Awoke to the sound of the wind whirling
And steadied my footing, swirling
As I chanced upon the window sill
Glancing at this winter chill
The fire in my heart has begun to simmer
Reminiscing of times where I was dimmer
Cherry trees full in bloom
A principality with no gloom
As I view an azure sky, smiling
And I was in the heat, styling
About this child-like dreams
Before I could see my seams
Those bitter frozen nights
Where we rose to such great heights
In that dank criminal bedroom
Spinning the idea of a groom
There was never a happier soul
But all you left was a piece of coal
I solemnly confess
You in your christmas dress
Scrawling about that wood floor
Is a flicker that I will always adore
It calms my wild nerves
Reminded of your lean curves
Blue eyes rocketing the air
As you sit seductively in the chair
Or the couch that had too much love
That we were meant to be a part of
Our conduit by friend
Every evening we would ascend
Into a blur of lust and booze
Always afraid of what to lose
I remember nights
Holding you watching the lights
Listening to cries of youths
Whispering loudly my future truths
But you witnessed my leave
And your eyes did not grieve
Seldom I gaze on you
With you my madness grew
I do still remember amid the rocks
Drunk as hell, having talks
I knew then it was a lost cause
But my heart was stuck in your jaws
Still I believe with all the time
That you gave me the hangman’s lime
I’ve never had the talent to get rid
Of the essence I had when I was a kid
Im still the same
All full of shame
Trapped inside my demonic mind
The chamber which I am confined
Trying to peer out the crack
But I always draw back
Of fear of the mask falling off
So the others will not scoff
And deem me unfit
Which I readily admit
But you once were my stars
And you returned with prison bars
